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  • The 2022 JOURNEY CIBAs Finalists for Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction

    The 2022 JOURNEY CIBAs Finalists for Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction

    Journey Narrative Non-Fiction CIBA BadgeThe Journey Book Awards recognize emerging new talent and outstanding works in the genre of Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction and Memoir. The Journey Book Awards is a genre division of Chanticleer International Book Awards and Novel Competitions (CIBAs).

    Chanticleer International Book Awards is looking for the best books featuring true stories about adventures, life events, unique experiences, travel, personal journeys, global enlightenment, and more. We will put books about true and inspiring stories to the test and choose the best among them. See our full list of Non-Fiction Divisions here

    These titles have moved forward in the Semi-Finalist Journey Non-Fiction entries to the 2022 Journey Book Awards FINALISTS. All FINALISTS will be announced and recognized at the Chanticleer Authors Conference (CAC23). The First Place Category Winners, along with the CIBA Division Grand Prize winners, will be selected from the 25 CIBA divisions’ Finalists.

    We will announce the 1st Place Category winners and Grand Prize Division Winners at the CIBAs Banquet and Ceremony on Saturday, April 29th, 2023 at the luxurious Hotel Bellwether in Bellingham, Wash. sponsored by the 2023 Chanticleer Authors Conference

    These titles are in the running for the First Place and Grand Prize Winners of the 2022 Journey Book Awards novel competition for Overcoming Adversity in Non-Fiction!

    Join us in celebrating the Finalist authors and their works in the 2022 CIBAs.

    • Sandi Paris – Catching Rain
    • Michael Wohl – In Herschel’s Wake
    • Ashe and Magdalena Stevens – Lost in Beirut: A True Story of Love, Loss and War
    • Norris Comer – Salmon in the Seine: Alaskan Memories of Life, Death, & Everything In-Between
    • Laura Whitfield – Untethered: Faith, Failure, and Finding Solid Ground
    • Kyomi O’Connor – A Sky of Infinite Blue- A Japanese Immigrant’s Search for Home and Self
    • Roselle Madrone – The Open Book: A Family Memoir of Adventure, Trauma, and Resilience
    • D. Terrence Foster, MD – The Stress Book: Forty-Plus Ways to Manage Stress & Enjoy Your Life
    • Mark Berridge – A Fraction Stronger
    • Joseph G. Krygier with Victor Breitburg – A Rage To Live: Surviving The Holocaust So Hitler Would Not Win
    • Donna McCart Welser – Rue’s Butterfly
    • Simone Yemm – Stalked by Demons, Guarded by Angels: The Girl with the Eating Disorder
    • Philip Lister – A Short Good Life: Her Father Tells Liza’s Story of Facing Death
    • M. E. Schuman – The Understory: A Female Environmentalist in the Land of the Midnight Sun
    • Meredith O’Brien – Opening The Door: My Journey Through Anorexia To Full Recovery
    • Susan Frances Morris – The Sensitive One
    • Amelia Zachry – Enough – A Memoir of Mistakes, Mania, and Motherhood
    • Carolyn DiPasquale – Reckless Grace: A Mother’s Crash Course in Mental Illness
    • Mike Coleman – The Way from Me to Us
    • Gabriel Bron – The Journey Home: Portraits of Healing
    • Catherine Ehrlich – Irma’s Passport: One Woman, Two World Wars, and a Legacy of Courage
    • Denise Collins – What Happened to John

    Blue and Gold Badge for the finalists of the Journey non-fiction awards

     

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    Good luck to all as your works move on to the next rounds of judging.

    The Grand Prize Winner for the CIBA 2021 JOURNEY Awards is:

    Better Off Bald: A Life in 147 Days

    Andrea Wilson Woods

    The 2022 JOURNEY Book Awards winners will be announced at CAC23 on April 29, 2023. Save the date for CAC23, scheduled April 27-30, 2023, our 10 year Conference Anniversary!

    Submissions for the 2023 JOURNEY Book Awards are open until the end of July. Enter here!

    Don’t delay! Enter today! 

    IN-Person – April 27-30, 2023! Register Today!

    Seating is Limited. The esteemed WRITER Magazine (founded in 1887)  has repeatedly recognized the Chanticleer Authors Conference as one of the best conferences to attend and participate in for North America.

    A Collage of Speakers and Blue Ribbon Winners for CAC23

    Join us for our 11th annual conference and discover why!

  • The 2022 Semi-Finalists JOURNEY Book Awards for Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction

    The 2022 Semi-Finalists JOURNEY Book Awards for Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction

    Journey Narrative Non-Fiction CIBA Badge

    The Journey Book Awards recognize emerging new talent and outstanding works in the genre of Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction and Memoir. The Journey Book Awards is a genre division of Chanticleer International Book Awards and Novel Competitions (CIBAs).

    Chanticleer International Book Awards is looking for the best books featuring true stories about adventures, life events, unique experiences, travel, personal journeys, global enlightenment, and more. We will put books about true and inspiring stories to the test and choose the best among them. See our full list of Non-Fiction Divisions here

    These titles have moved forward in the Short List Journey Non-Fiction entries to the 2022 Journey Book Awards SEMI-FINALISTS. Entries below are now in competition for 2022 Journey Finalists. All FINALISTS will be announced and recognized at the Chanticleer Authors Conference (CAC23).

    The First Place Category Winners, along with the CIBA Division Grand Prize winners, will be selected from the 25 CIBA divisions’ Finalists.

    We will announce the 1st Place Category winners and Grand Prize Division Winners at the CIBAs Banquet and Ceremony on Saturday, April 29th, 2023 at the luxurious Hotel Bellwether in Bellingham, Wash. sponsored by the 2023 Chanticleer Authors Conference

    These titles are in the running for the FINALISTS of the 2022 Journey Book Awards novel competition for Overcoming Adversity in Non-Fiction!

    Join us in celebrating the Semi-Finalist authors and their works in the 2022 CIBAs.

    • Sandi Paris – Catching Rain
    • Michael Wohl – In Herschel’s Wake
    • Ashe and Magdalena Stevens – Lost in Beirut: A True Story of Love, Loss and War
    • Norris Comer – Salmon in the Seine: Alaskan Memories of Life, Death, & Everything In-Between
    • Laura Whitfield – Untethered: Faith, Failure, and Finding Solid Ground
    • Nicholas Chittick – A PRISONER’S FIGHT: The Pandemic as Seen From Inside the Illinois Department of Corrections
    • Linda Murphy Marshall – Ivy Lodge: A Memoir of Translation and Discovery
    • Kim Fairley – Swimming for My Life
    • Kyomi O’Connor – A Sky of Infinite Blue- A Japanese Immigrant’s Search for Home and Self
    • Roselle Madrone, Robin Detmer, & Kris Dutter – The Open Book: A Family Memoir of Adventure, Trauma, and Resilience
    • D. Terrence Foster, MD – The Stress Book: Forty-Plus Ways to Manage Stress & Enjoy Your Life
    • Mark Berridge – A Fraction Stronger
    • Joseph G. Krygier with Victor Breitburg – A Rage To Live: Surviving The Holocaust So Hitler Would Not Win
    • Donna McCart Welser – Rue’s Butterfly
    • Simone Yemm – Stalked by Demons, Guarded by Angels: The Girl with the Eating Disorder
    • Philip Lister – A Short Good Life: Her Father Tells Liza’s Story of Facing Death
    • M. E. Schuman – The Understory: A Female Environmentalist in the Land of the Midnight Sun
    • Meredith O’Brien – Opening The Door: My Journey Through Anorexia To Full Recovery
    • Susan Frances Morris – The Sensitive One
    • Amelia Zachry – Enough – A Memoir of Mistakes, Mania, and Motherhood
    • Carolyn DiPasquale – Reckless Grace: A Mother’s Crash Course in Mental Illness
    • Jackie Carol Haines – Pinball, the Stray I Needed
    • Mike Coleman – The Way from Me to Us
    • Gabriel Bron – The Journey Home: Portraits of Healing
    • Catherine Ehrlich – Irma’s Passport: One Woman, Two World Wars, and a Legacy of Courage
    • Denise Collins – What Happened to John

     

    PROMOTING OUR AUTHORS! 

    This post has been posted on the Chanticleer Facebook Page. We try to tag all authors listed here in the FB post. However, for FB to allow us to tag an author, that author must LIKE our page and Follow Chanticleer Reviews.

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    Good luck to all as your works move on to the next rounds of judging.

    The Grand Prize Winner for the CIBA 2021 JOURNEY Awards is:

    Better Off Bald: A Life in 147 Days

    Andrea Wilson Woods

    The 2022 JOURNEY Book Awards winners will be announced at CAC23 on April 29, 2023. Save the date for CAC23, scheduled April 27-30, 2023, our 10 year Conference Anniversary!

    Submissions for the 2023 JOURNEY Book Awards are open until the end of July. Enter here!

    Don’t delay! Enter today! 

    IN-Person – April 27-30, 2023! Register Today!

    Seating is Limited. The esteemed WRITER Magazine (founded in 1887)  has repeatedly recognized the Chanticleer Authors Conference as one of the best conferences to attend and participate in for North America.

    Join us for our 11th annual conference and discover why!

    A Collage of Speakers and Blue Ribbon Winners for CAC23

  • The 2022 Short List JOURNEY Book Awards for Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction

    The 2022 Short List JOURNEY Book Awards for Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction

    Journey Narrative Non-Fiction CIBA Badge

    The Journey Book Awards recognize emerging new talent and outstanding works in the genre of Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction and Memoir. The Journey Book Awards is a genre division of Chanticleer International Book Awards and Novel Competitions (CIBAs).

    Chanticleer International Book Awards is looking for the best books featuring true stories about adventures, life events, unique experiences, travel, personal journeys, global enlightenment, and more. We will put books about true and inspiring stories to the test and choose the best among them. See our full list of Non-Fiction Divisions here

    These titles have moved forward in the Long List Journey Non-Fiction entries to the 2022 Journey Book Awards SHORT LIST. Entries below are now in competition for 2022 Journey Semi-Finalists. Finalists will be selected from the Semi-Finalists. All FINALISTS will be announced and recognized at the Chanticleer Authors Conference (CAC23).

    The First Place Category Winners, along with the CIBA Division Grand Prize winners, will be selected from the 25 CIBA divisions’ Finalists.

    We will announce the 1st Place Category winners and Grand Prize Division Winners at the CIBAs Banquet and Ceremony on Saturday, April 29th, 2023 at the luxurious Hotel Bellwether in Bellingham, Wash. sponsored by the 2023 Chanticleer Authors Conference

    These titles are in the running for the SEMI-FINALIST of the 2022 Journey Book Awards novel competition for Overcoming Adversity in Non-Fiction!

    Join us in celebrating the ShortList authors and their works in the 2022 CIBAs.

    • Ian Gregory – On Insanity
    • Sandi Paris – Catching Rain
    • Michael Wohl – In Herschel’s Wake
    • Ashe and Magdalena Stevens – Lost in Beirut: A True Story of Love, Loss and War
    • Norris Comer – Salmon in the Seine: Alaskan Memories of Life, Death, & Everything In-Between
    • Laura Whitfield – Untethered: Faith, Failure, and Finding Solid Ground
    • Nicholas Chittick – A PRISONER’S FIGHT: The Pandemic as Seen From Inside the Illinois Department of Corrections
    • Linda Murphy Marshall – Ivy Lodge: A Memoir of Translation and Discovery
    • Kim Fairley – Swimming for My Life
    • Kyomi O’Connor – A Sky of Infinite Blue- A Japanese Immigrant’s Search for Home and Self
    • Roselle Madrone, Robin Detmer, & Kris Dutter – The Open Book: A Family Memoir of Adventure, Trauma, and Resilience
    • D. Terrence Foster, MD – The Stress Book: Forty-Plus Ways to Manage Stress & Enjoy Your Life
    • Mark Berridge – A Fraction Stronger
    • Joseph G. Krygier with Victor Breitburg – A Rage To Live: Surviving The Holocaust So Hitler Would Not Win
    • Katherine Caire – Accidental Sisters
    • Donna McCart Welser – Rue’s Butterfly
    • Lyn Barrett – Crazy: Reclaiming Life from the Shadow of Traumatic Memory
    • Simone Yemm – Stalked by Demons, Guarded by Angels: The Girl with the Eating Disorder
    • Philip Lister – A Short Good Life: Her Father Tells Liza’s Story of Facing Death
    • M. E. Schuman – The Understory: A Female Environmentalist in the Land of the Midnight Sun
    • Meredith O’Brien – Opening The Door: My Journey Through Anorexia To Full Recovery
    • Susan Frances Morris – The Sensitive One
    • Stuart Nagero – Truth is Indestructible
    • Amelia Zachry – Enough – A Memoir of Mistakes, Mania, and Motherhood
    • Carolyn DiPasquale – Reckless Grace: A Mother’s Crash Course in Mental Illness
    • Jackie Carol Haines – Pinball, the Stray I Needed
    • Benjamin Plumb – The Satisfied Introvert: A Memoir About Finding Safety in an Extroverted World
    • Mike Coleman – The Way from Me to Us
    • Gabriel Bron – The Journey Home: Portraits of Healing
    • Catherine Ehrlich – Irma’s Passport: One Woman, Two World Wars, and a Legacy of Courage
    • Melissa Harris – One Pound, Twelve Ounces
    • Denise Collins – What Happened to John

    Good luck to all as your works move on to the next rounds of judging.

    PROMOTING OUR AUTHORS! 

    This post has been posted on the Chanticleer Facebook Page. We try to tag all authors listed here in the FB post. However, for FB to allow us to tag an author, that author must LIKE our page and Follow Chanticleer Reviews.

    Please click here to visit our page to LIKE, COMMENT, and SHARE on Facebook.

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    The Grand Prize Winner for the CIBA 2021 JOURNEY Awards is:

    Better Off Bald: A Life in 147 Days

    Andrea Wilson Woods

    The 2022 JOURNEY Book Awards winners will be announced at CAC23 on April 29, 2023. Save the date for CAC23, scheduled April 27-30, 2023, our 10 year Conference Anniversary!

    Submissions for the 2023 JOURNEY Book Awards are open until the end of July. Enter here!

    Don’t delay! Enter today! 

    IN-Person – April 27-30, 2023! Register Today!

    Seating is Limited. The esteemed WRITER Magazine (founded in 1887)  has repeatedly recognized the Chanticleer Authors Conference as one of the best conferences to attend and participate in for North America.

    Join us for our 11th annual conference and discover why!

    A Collage of Speakers and Blue Ribbon Winners for CAC23

  • The 2022 Long List JOURNEY Book Awards for Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction

    The 2022 Long List JOURNEY Book Awards for Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction

    Journey Narrative Non-Fiction CIBA Badge

    The Journey Book Awards recognize emerging new talent and outstanding works in the genre of Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction and Memoir. The Journey Book Awards is a genre division of Chanticleer International Book Awards and Novel Competitions (CIBAs).

    Chanticleer International Book Awards is looking for the best books featuring true stories about adventures, life events, unique experiences, travel, personal journeys, global enlightenment, and more. We will put books about true and inspiring stories to the test and choose the best among them. See our full list of Non-Fiction Divisions here

    These titles have moved forward in the judging rounds from all 2022 Journey Non-Fiction entries to the 2022 Journey Book Awards LONG LIST. Entries below are now in competition for 2022 Journey Short List. The Short Listers will compete for the Semi-Finalist positions. Finalists will be selected from the Semi-Finalists. All FINALISTS will be announced and recognized at the Chanticleer Authors Conference (CAC23).

    The First Place Category Winners, along with the CIBA Division Grand Prize winners, will be selected from the 25 CIBA divisions’ Finalists.

    We will announce the 1st Place Category winners and Grand Prize Division Winners at the CIBAs Banquet and Ceremony on Saturday, April 29th, 2023 at the luxurious Hotel Bellwether in Bellingham, Wash. sponsored by the 2023 Chanticleer Authors Conference

    These titles are in the running for the SHORT LIST of the 2022 Journey Book Awards novel competition for Overcoming Adversity in Non-Fiction!

    Join us in celebrating the Long List authors and their works in the 2022 CIBAs.

    • Ian Gregory – On Insanity
    • Sandi Paris – Catching Rain
    • Michael Wohl – In Herschel’s Wake
    • Ashe and Magdalena Stevens – Lost in Beirut: A True Story of Love, Loss and War
    • Norris Comer – Salmon in the Seine: Alaskan Memories of Life, Death, & Everything In-Between
    • Laura Whitfield – Untethered: Faith, Failure, and Finding Solid Ground
    • Nicholas Chittick – A PRISONER’S FIGHT: The Pandemic as Seen From Inside the Illinois Department of Corrections
    • Linda Murphy Marshall – Ivy Lodge: A Memoir of Translation and Discovery
    • C.J. Hudson – Destiny Lives on Fairhaven Street
    • Kim Fairley – Swimming for My Life
    • Kyomi O’Connor – A Sky of Infinite Blue- A Japanese Immigrant’s Search for Home and Self
    • Carter Obasohan – Notes From Out West
    • Roselle Madrone, Robin Detmer, & Kris Dutter – The Open Book: A Family Memoir of Adventure, Trauma, and Resilience
    • D. Terrence Foster, MD – The Stress Book: Forty-Plus Ways to Manage Stress & Enjoy Your Life
    • Mark Berridge – A Fraction Stronger
    • Joseph G. Krygier with Victor Breitburg – A Rage To Live: Surviving The Holocaust So Hitler Would Not Win
    • Katherine Caire – Accidental Sisters
    • Donna McCart Welser – Rue’s Butterfly
    • Lyn Barrett – Crazy: Reclaiming Life from the Shadow of Traumatic Memory
    • Simone Yemm – Stalked by Demons, Guarded by Angels: The Girl with the Eating Disorder
    • Philip Lister – A Short Good Life: Her Father Tells Liza’s Story of Facing Death
    • Tina Scott – The Forbidden Fruit: A True Story of Sex, Drugs, and the Afterlife
    • M. E. Schuman – The Understory: A Female Environmentalist in the Land of the Midnight Sun
    • Meredith O’Brien – Opening The Door: My Journey Through Anorexia To Full Recovery
    • Susan Frances Morris – The Sensitive One
    • Stuart Nagero – Truth is Indestructible
    • Amelia Zachry – Enough – A Memoir of Mistakes, Mania, and Motherhood
    • Carolyn DiPasquale – Reckless Grace: A Mother’s Crash Course in Mental Illness
    • Jackie Carol Haines – Pinball, the Stray I Needed
    • Benjamin Plumb – The Satisfied Introvert: A Memoir About Finding Safety in an Extroverted World
    • Mike Coleman – The Way from Me to Us
    • Linda Kolsky – Heavenly Hindsights: How One Mother Found Meaning in her Life After the Death of Her Child
    • Gabriel Bron – The Journey Home: Portraits of Healing
    • Catherine Ehrlich – Irma’s Passport: One Woman, Two World Wars, and a Legacy of Courage
    • Melissa Harris – One Pound, Twelve Ounces
    • Denise Collins – What Happened to John
    • Lynette Ingram – Flares from a Fallout Shelter
    • Linda Lee Henderson – Wake Up Mom!

    Good luck to all as your works move on to the next rounds of judging.

    PROMOTING OUR AUTHORS! 

    This post has been posted on the Chanticleer Facebook Page. We try to tag all authors listed here in the FB post. However, for FB to allow us to tag an author, that author must LIKE our page and Follow Chanticleer Reviews.

    Please click here to visit our page to LIKE, COMMENT, and SHARE on Facebook.

    Additionally, we also post on Twitter. Chanticleer Twitter’s handle is @ChantiReviews

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    Good luck to all as your works move on to the next rounds of judging.

    The Grand Prize Winner for the CIBA 2021 JOURNEY Awards is:

    Better Off Bald: A Life in 147 Days

    Andrea Wilson Woods

     

    The 2022 JOURNEY Book Awards winners will be announced at CAC23 on April 29, 2023. Save the date for CAC23, scheduled April 27-30, 2023, our 10 year Conference Anniversary!

    Submissions for the 2023 JOURNEY Book Awards are open until the end of July. Enter here!

    Don’t delay! Enter today! 

    IN-Person – April 27-30, 2023! Register Today!

    Seating is Limited. The esteemed WRITER Magazine (founded in 1887)  has repeatedly recognized the Chanticleer Authors Conference as one of the best conferences to attend and participate in for North America.

    Join us for our 11th annual conference and discover why!

  • WHISPERS by Lynn Yvonne Moon – Family Drama, Teen & Y/A Physical & Emotional Abuse, Teen & Y/A Sexual Abuse

    WHISPERS by Lynn Yvonne Moon – Family Drama, Teen & Y/A Physical & Emotional Abuse, Teen & Y/A Sexual Abuse

    Gold and Blue Badge that reads: Dante Rossetti YA Fiction 2018 Grand Prize Whispers Lynn Yvonne MoonWhispers by Lynn Yvonne Moon explores the issue of incest through the life of twelve-year-old Musetta, whose father has just died. We meet Musetta at her father’s funeral and realize that this girl is dealing with serious issues. Still, more than grief, she’s filled with rage – and relief. And we cannot blame her. Whispers is filled with enough intrigue and family secrets to glue readers’ eyeballs to the page and hug their parents when they reach the end of the tale.

    Musetta can’t get the attention of her grieving mother, and she’s not sure who she can turn to for help. Who will believe her story? But she knows what happened to her. After her father’s funeral, she believes the Friday night ritual of rape is over and that the molestation will stop. However, it’s not quite that easy.

    First off, there are voices in her bedroom walls – and worse, the molestation continues. Is it her father’s ghost? She can’t go to her mother for help, and she won’t go to the law unless her mother is by her side. Who would believe her over her late father’s reputation as an upstanding citizen and the favorite local judge?

    But Musetta isn’t alone. Her friends hear the ghostly voices and soon believe her. As they band together, taking on the role of detectives, they have no way of knowing how much danger lies ahead. But when one of her friends is abducted, then another, it will take all the courage and resourcefulness she has to continue on and to discover precisely who is behind the creepy whispers and the horrible abuse before it’s too late.

    Lynn Yvonne Moon develops a protagonist who will search for the truth no matter where it leads, and no matter what, she discovers about her family. Soon, she uncovers the lies of her grandparents.

    Her father was a twin? It takes several more visits with her grandparents and a box filled with photos and papers before Musetta has the proof she needs. But will it only get her into more trouble? Of course.

    This award-winning, page-turner of a novel reveals the reality that generational secrets have power. Secrets that put Musetta and all of her friends in great peril. Musetta’s determination to put the pieces of her family puzzle together led her further along the path to her family’s undoing. Because what she uncovers will have readers blood running cold.

    Lynn Yvonne Moon unravels her complicated plot on this sensitive topic with a deft hand. Careful readers will pick up tiny clues that will keep them turning pages as we root for Musetta in this hair-raising tale of family intrigue and abuse.

    Whispers won the CIBA 2018 DANTE ROSSETTI Award for Young Adult fiction novels.

  • The LOOSE ENDS BECAME KNOTS: An ILLNESS NARRATIVE by Austin Hopkins – Memoir, Sexual Awakening, Health and Wellness

    The LOOSE ENDS BECAME KNOTS: An ILLNESS NARRATIVE by Austin Hopkins – Memoir, Sexual Awakening, Health and Wellness

    A young man survives the extremes of sexual abuse, physical harm and emotional chaos in the harrowing and profoundly powerful memoir, The Loose Ends Became Knots: An Illness Narrative by Austin M. Hopkins.

     The experience of sexual violence starts for Hopkins as a teenager, during the time he struggles defining his own sexual identity. The men he meets take advantage of his youth and naiveté, at first, and later, though he gradually becomes wiser to the stark intricacies of a sexual awakening in the world of gay men, he still succumbs to men who use him – with and without his consent. He never seeks such treatment consciously, yet, it continues to happen. What is it about him that attracts predatory partners, he wonders? Hopkins grapples with the many issues that often assail young people dealing with gender identity: How can he reach out to his parents for help when the root of his pain contradicts whom he believes they want him to be? Is he disappointing them? Will they cut him out of their lives? How complicated his life has become since his childhood!

     As encounter after encounter with unkind and uncaring individuals sends him into a downward spiral, three things work together to give him hope: he’s a bright student and doing well in college; he finds an excellent therapist who offers concrete advice and skills that will serve to help him personally and professionally in the years to come; and finally, after courageous self-examination and altered personal perspective, he meets a loving, compassionate partner, who, though not fully understanding the different emotions and energies from Hopkins past, authentically recognizes and acknowledges the unique qualities that his partner brings into their marriage.

     Hopkins has collected this episodic memoir from his journals, poetry and other writings, and added the observations of others, attributing identity where permission was granted. He carefully phrases the depictions of sexual violence in a manner that compels the reader to feel his pain and humiliation. Hopkins does not shrink from the frank sense of shame and self-blame that characterizes his early encounters. Readers unfamiliar with sexual awakening stories may find some of the text hard to work through. And yet, the author presents his work as a gift to those who are on the brink of their own sexual awakening – or who are already there and wonder what next to do – how to live successfully in the malaise of public opinion and family complications. It is through the pain and traumatic recollections that Hopkins expresses himself most eloquently – and it is here where his work, though painful, is the most rewarding. Readers witness a young man triumph over obstacles and begin to actively balance his life with acceptance and love, endeavoring to help others along the way.

    Hopkins’ story is profoundly powerful. And his story is not over – he is, after all, a young man working towards a career in medicine. He offers this narrative to “raise awareness of the pervasiveness of sexual violence within the gay community” as he experienced it. His goal is to help others who are experiencing similar kinds of abuse and hopefully shed a much-needed light in this potentially lonely and frightening time for those whose sexual identity is something other than what certain groups claim as normal.